Jesus Christ I just drove 45+ miles

Holy Crap everyone. I just drove on the highway and back into hanover and around hanover. If you know me at all you know I fear driving more than anything else. AND I still fear it, but so glad I was able to do what I just did. I don't expect to make this driving thing the usual, but at least now I know I sorta remember how to do it. My body still hurts from being so tense for the last hour of my life.

i'm BACK!

alright i know i haven't posted in a while, but it's because i've been playing this super fun game called "i can't make decisions and will instead just wallow" (not such a fun game as no one really wins) but exciting news, GAME OVER. i have made a decision and while i still feel a little nervous/apprehensive about the whole thing, i've decided that moving forward is better than wallowing and that the advantages of school right now far outweigh my reservations. so......i will be going to w&m--colonial williamsburg here i come! hopefully i will get to have a part-time job where i get to dress like this:
it only took me 2 months, but i think i really am happy about this decision! i also want to encourage visitors!!! nothing says fun like butter churning!

as for law school itself, it's slightly terrifying to think of the next year. you hear so many horror stories about year 1, how its designed to "humiliate and crush you into the mold of a lawyer"...ugh....i'm sort of hoping it will be more like this:




i am excited to have some structure/ you know, purpose to my life, because really there are only so many gilmore girls episodes one can watch. and REALLY excited to be back on an academic calandar. so still figuring out the details, when i'm going, where i'm living, etc. but YAY!

i work for the people who made this ad and that makes me happy

so eds (im lowercasing it so this doesnt get picked up, hopefully) was bought by HP and i work specifically for multiple parts of their business, (corporate, apps services, energy and financial services) and i just found out that this fantastic superbowl commercial was by them and i LOVE IT and now i just have to figure out who does their advertising and get involved. i mean, herding cats? brilliant!!

I can't believe this

whathefack

in part out of protest for the lack of posting and in part becuase i feel like a gerbil on a wheel rolling down hill, i did not post last week. and then i worked a 13 hour day yesterday and didnt post yesterday either. and now i feel like a neglectful mother.
so im posting though i have almost nothing to say because despite the overworking, im happy. and as you all well know, im a ranter. when theres nothing to rant about, i pretty much go on mute.
i think its time for a change, im going soft.
i feel a little vanilla yogurty. a little foggy. a little over-simplifed, subdued, contented in a post-labotomy kind of way.

here are my updates in ultimate lazy form, bullets:
* i just completed a 432 line 8 column spreadsheet for work. perhaps this is why i feel like a wet blanket. the project took me two weeks and prompted me to vow to my parents (thats when it gets serious,when im swearing on my mothers life, to my mother) that i WILL quit this job even if i havent found a new one, in six months
* on the other end of the spectrum my boss asked me to write and read a poem for her wedding. ive been working on it. gone through about thirty drafts and am back to a blank page. i think this might be the toughest writing assignment of my life.
* im in a relationship. i should stop pretending i'm not because its getting me in trouble. i might be in trouble anyway since a signifigant portion of me is rejecting the idea of being in a relationship, but i'll deal with that later.
* i'm going to southampton for memorial day. note, i did not say home. i wrote home and then i erased it because it doesnt feel like home. boston feels like home. this is signifigant i think. anyway brit will be back from her incredible south american adventure and the entire original crew of my youth will be flocking back to the territory and i cant believe that at this time last year we were all about to graduate. it is outrageous how much has passed in this year.
anyway home or not home or second home, i miss southampton and its potato fields and peach-filled farm stands and white fenced horse farms and im really ready to eat my mother cooking again.
post updates, my friends, it does a body good. i feel a little less like tofu already.
love
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Silent video

SIGNS from Syan on Vimeo.

it's been FOREVER since i've posted

granted, so i know i really need to write a long catch-up post, which i promise will come! (short update: i've been postponing the law school decision like WHOA...still no final decision) but i'm running around like crazy today so a few short bway clips will have to do.....
the first is just sort of what i want to happen one day at kareoke.....


this is just a cute one with one kristin chenoweth (pre-wicked) and nathan lane (pre-producers)-- also note how tiny she is, she barely reaches his shoulder in Heels (capital H for they are huge)



and finally, a movie i am VERY excited about (going on thursday) it looks like american idol meets BROADWAY which = AMAZING

my sense of humor to a T.

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